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Today I did Zumba followed by running a mile on the treadmill. I feel like I could've done more and next time I think I will. I feel like I am becoming addicted to exercise, not in an unhealthy way or anything, just that I really enjoy it and I look forward to it each day.

I miss my hubby. Nights are hard for me.

(574) I'm not creative enough to come up with a title for this post

I worry about him less than I did the first half of the deployment. I still worry a lot because it's me... but I know what to expect the second half. All I knew the first half was what I saw on Army Wives and what I read in books and frankly most of that stuff doesn't apply to me and the hubby. We don't live our lives like a lot of couples, especially army ones. It comes down to the most simple things really... for one my husband refuses to play video games unless I play because he knows it bothers me (past relationships I was ignored for video games) and he's honestly rather cuddle with me on the couch than doing something separate. During deployment, he calls me every single day, unless he's traveling (in which he'll text me) or I have something going on and can't talk. He never wants to not talk, even when I suggest it.

On another note (because my brain thinks of random things and this is my blog so I'll say what I want :p)... I hate when circumstances make it uncomfortable for me to wear the hubby's dog tags. I hate taking them off. I've worn them since he left and I got to take them off when he came for R&R. When I shower I take them off because when I bend over to wrap the towel on my head it gets in the way and makes it difficult, so I decided that it would be ok to not wear it in the shower. Then as I have been going to the gym more and more I realized that running and the dog tags make an annoying noise. And yes I realize how random this is but it's better than flooding my fb with it.

I really want to get some new workout clothes. The pants I have are really uncomfortable when I start sweating a lot (like at Zumba). Also I wanna get clothes that make me feel good. I don't mean that show off a lot, I just mean something a little more cute.

If my finger wasn't so crooked my wedding ring would fall off. Instead of sucking my thumb like a normal kid, I sucked my ring finger. Out of all the fingers I could've picked... I could have the rings resized but I heard your fingers swell when you get pregnant and I hope that will happen sometime in the future so I will wait to have them resized. And my finger is in no danger of becoming straight any time soon. So they wont actually fall off they just feel that way. Ever since I got my engagement ring I constantly check to make sure they are still on my finger. In my hubby's defense they both fit when he got them.

I feel kinda blah right now. I miss my hubby the most at night :(

(572) Commercials or Lack There Of ... and evil candy

One down side about getting rid of cable tv is now there are no commercials. While this may seem like a good thing, it's not. It just means when I have to do something, like use the bathroom or get some water, I have to have the will power to stop the show. The only natural stopping point is when the episode comes to and end. I just never realized how important commercials were. And this is completely random, but I'm sitting here with a full bladder because I lack the self control to press the pause button.

Wow there are 20 calories in 1 Starburst. They are yummy for sure but I need to quit eating them like crazy. I suppose they would be good to keep in my purse for when I feel like I'm gunna pass out if I don't eat something and there's nothing else around. I can't keep eating them like this. Not that I want to be super skinny but I do want to eat semi-healthy and be in good shape for when the hubby comes home.

It really bothers me when the hubby tells me he wants to come home. I like hearing it once in a while but everyday we talk he says that. It just breaks my heart. Of course I want him home, but I also wish he wasn't having such a rough time being away. I mean we gotta make the best of whatever situation we are in. At least that's how I'm trying to approach this. No matter how I word this, I know it probably sounds bad. I love him and I want him home more than anything but I also don't want him to be completely unhappy over there.

I like drinking things from a straw. For some reason it makes it more enjoyable. I'm drinking some Gatorade before Zumba.

So Toad's in heat for the first time (that I've noticed). It's kind of funny to watch, but I feel bad for her. When I have to take her for her shots in November I'm gunna look into getting her fixed or whatever it's called for females. I don't want her to suffer and she's an indoor cat so she wont be getting any. Any it kinda creeped me out because yesterday night I woke up to Leo humping her. Kinda disturbing. I feel like she's lost her innocence now :(

Dear melatonin, please kick in so I can fall asleep at a normal person time and get enough rest to deal with work.

(570) Zumba!

I am completely exhausted... since I'm not used to waking up at 630 and actually staying awake on purpose. I'm still going to Zumba though. I'm trying to get in better shape for when the hubby comes home. I don't mean losing weight, I mean having energy to actually run 2 miles (and the energy to do energy consuming things with the hubby *wink wink*). Since I have a lot of free time that isn't consumed by cuddling with him, I gotta do something, so yay exercising. Zumba is a lot of fun, it feels more like dancing than exercising, but it's definitely helped me get in better shape and I haven't even been going that long.